The day comes to a close...

I sit here at work, finishing up the day and as always, full of laughs!  We always laugh and say "I love us" at work.   Whenever one of us is going through something rough, we always pick em up.  It is like a safe house, keeping us sane.  I have been through some rough times but they seem to fade away when I come to work.  I appreciate that all the time.  I can't say enough how much I love my job, but I will say it again... I LOVE MY JOB!

So as this day comes to a close... I am faced with going home!  I get bored sitting there.  I remember being younger and always having something to do on the weekends, where did those days go?  I get that I am "almost 30 ;)" and married but why does the fun need to end?  Why can't I still go to the local watering hole and get drunk on $20 and dance the night away?  I am recalling my youth!  I miss the smell of cigarettes in bars, yes I said that!  I miss the loud ass blaring music, I miss the blisters and the sweat.  I want to go out this weekend and shake my ass all night and not worry about people looking at me like I am some crazy PUMA.  I remember when just driving around, drinking a Zima and listening to some house music was enough.  Or hanging out at a park, watching the boys play basketball was almost TOO much!  I know that we get older and "grow up" but why do we have to lose our zest for life?  I don't think it has to be that way.  I know we have responsibilites as adults and have to handle our business but I think we can still love the bigger things.  I do not feel my age, well except for when I am hungover and exhausted... I can't hang the way I used to, other than that, I don't.  I act like the same goofy nut I have always been. 

I guess I just needed to vent about the aging process and how envious I am of the youngins' that don't realize how great they have it!

XOXOXO

Hitch

hollywood Romance

I tortured my poor hubs by making him see "Valentine's Day" tonight and I mean, this movie was not good. I'm a romantic to the core but something has happened over the years that has changed the idea of marriage and relationships. Marriage used to be a business type deal now girls are on a mission to find IT ALL. It doesn't exist, not truly. We want a whirlwind romance and hot sexy nights, but who really feels sexy after long working days or over eating at your Italian FEAST sunday's? I hardly feel seductive in my current ensemble of flannel pjs and purple t-shirt but I certainly am not going to slap on some makeup and a pair of boy shorts to lounge around! Why do WE need to seduce our men visually? Why don't they throw on a nice suit at night or a cop uniform (whichever tickles your fancy) to keep us interested? We watch these movies where sex and love prevail and it is perfect and no one is unsatisfied, ever. In the real world, I think we are unsatisfied. We want perfection but you may have just that, already. I take a step back once in a while to look at what I have and let me tell you, it is pretty damn good!

My husband is a hard worker, funny as hell, a romantic and loving man. I'm lucky. He has changed a lot in the past 7 years to become who he is today. I believe people change, we all do. I'm not the same today as I was 10 years ago. If I was, shame on me! My heart has always been topped off with love and always willing to give it. I have always been a trouble maker, a fighter, outspoken, funny and pretty damn rude. Those are my best qualities! Those don't change but I've grown up. I've become a woman, a wife and an adult. I changed. People do change. Not always for the best but regardless they do.

So, if you are single and holding onto that dream that your McDreamy will come along, you may be single for a long time. There maybe 1 out there but guess what? Thousands of women just like you are searching for him too. I'm not saying settle but the chick flick situations only exist on paper :)

Hitch