To the lonely hearts around the world...

I listen all day to people talk and discuss their relationships or lack there of and it baffles me.  I don't know what these people do or act like when they are out but I am thinking if they are who they "play on TV" then they are in for a rude awakening.  If you can't be yourself in front of basically no body important, how are you suppose to be comfortable in front of a man?  I don't get it.  I don't judge a book by its cover but I think that there are deep rooted issues if you are that uncomfortable in your own skin! 

We are a good looking group of women with different personalities and all strong ones!  When you are over shadowed by peers, then you are going to be invisible in a crowd.  It is sad.  I have never been quiet, timid or a phony...ever!  I can't be, it is not in my nature.  I am a loud person, funny and a ball buster to the max.  I have a hard time smiling and being somewhat nice to people who I don't like...I thik it is my best quality.  I can make someone very uneasy if I don't like them. 

So, onto dating issues...  When you act like you are fabulous and have it together but really are neither, eventually they will know.  Like Chris Rock has said, when you first meet someone, you meet their representative.  I think that it is very true.  It is usually the non-complaining, easy going rep they meet but not a whole other person that even your alter ego's shoes are too hard to fill.  It is suppose to be the best version of yourself, not a whole other idea of a person.  If you are an "old navy" kinda girl deep down but act like you are a "Bebe" fashionista, no one will buy it.  They are two polar opposites.  See for me, I am the baseball (Red Sox) loving, well dressed and casual, trendy, prep that I have always been.  I have never tried to become something I wasn't.  I have had my heart broken, been the "best friend" and the go to girl that you want to just hang out with.  I was never the hot chick at the bar, the long haired, big boob, runway praying mantis, that men chased.  I was the beer drinking, skinny, short haired, baseball cap wearing loud mouth in the middle of the room and having fun.  But, as much fun as that was, I had a desire to be the other girl.  I never could be though because the beer chugger would naturally come out.  I don't have a high pitched, sweet voice.  I don't have the flirt ability they did... I was honest.  I was real.  After fighting the urge to change into that high maintenance, hot mess... which I am glad I never became that, I learned to LOVE who I am.  I love who I am.  Grant it, I would change a few lumps and bumps but nothing to cry over.  I am proud of my truck driver mouth!

Yes I have had my heart broken, into pieces.  I would like a boy, they wouldn't look at me that way.  When you are 17, they want the slutty hot girl.  I never changed.  I dated.  Dumped.  Dated. Dumped.  I was always ahead of the curve though.  You never pulled some shit on me...being a tomboy, I thought like a guy.  You meet a guy, you exchange numbers, you best believe my number will never ever pop up on your screen.  I have stressed that to my single friends a million times.  If a guy likes you, he will call you.  If he don't, he don't like you.  He liked you after 15 Grey Goose.  You are better then that and move on.  I am old fashion.  A man should chase you, it is their job.  Women want to be pursued.  It makes us feel special.  Never let a man make you feel otherwise.  You are better than that.  If not, then you deserve your heart ache. 

This life is short, you need to take advantage of every moment.  If one thing in your life is causing you heart ache, the rest of your life will become painful too.  F*ck it!  Leave em!  You are not defined by marital status, by job titles, by addresses.  You are defined by YOU.  If you are the best version of you all the time, you can't go wrong.  Make the changes to better yourself. If not, you will be a lonely soul for a long time.

XOXOX

Hitch :)